What is it like having ADHD?
Well, for starters, ADHD Awareness Month was October. I fully intended to post once a week about it.
I posted once.
Is it an ADHD move to drive to Illinois when you’re trying to get down town in your same state?
Is it an ADHD move to miss your exit and not notice for an hour?
Is it an ADHD move to be watching an ADD TED talk, and you remember you have to add some things to your phone’s calendar, and then you accidentally start reading about the ballet, and end up watching another video on your phone while you’re still watching the TED Talk on the TV?
Is it an ADHD move to carry the entire full toddler potty into the bathroom to clean out the little receptacle part, carry the receptacle part back into the living room and discover that enter potty as suddenly just disappeared?? You ask the kids frantically, “Where is the potty? Where is the potty? Toddler just went!! How could the potty just disappear?!” You never find the potty, until your coffee kicks in, and you go into the bathroom and find the potty right where you left it.
Is it an ADHD move to lose a kid almost every place you go?
Is it an ADHD move to make screen shots of a bunch of your conversations with friends, intending to turn them into a blog post, and accidentally forget what you’re doing, and stop screen shotting halfway through the conversation, so later you have no idea what you were going to do with that, or what the conversation was even about?
Is it an ADHD move to write and schedule blog posts ahead of time, then be surprised when you see your blog automatically posted for you, then you read your article you completely forgot you wrote, and think, “Wow! That’s pretty good!” and still have no recollection of writing it?
Is it an ADHD move to lose literally everything?
I have no idea. This is just how my brain has always worked.
ADHD is more than the scatterbrained, distractibility moves one would typically associate with ADHD.
Is it an ADHD move to be so sensitive you can feel people walking, buildings moving, and air shifting? Is it an ADHD move to be able to smell things no one else seems to be able to? Is it an ADHD move to be aware of how your fingers feel different long after you’ve clipped your nails, or what your clothing feels like against your skin many hours after you’ve gotten dressed? Is it an ADHD move to be able to attend to several different conversations at once, even though you don’t want to, even though it’s extremely taxing for you? Is it an ADHD move to read every single sign you encounter, even when you try to block it out? Is it an ADHD move to get a migraine from going to IKEA?
Not always, but hypersensitivity is often a co-existing condition of ADHD.
Did you know there’s also often an emotional component with ADHD?
Is it an ADHD move to feel emotions so intensely people are often caught off guard? Is it an ADHD move to be completely over the moon or entirely devastated? Is it an ADHD move to end up crying and screaming on the floor again, feeling powerless to stop the feeling? Is it an ADHD move for people to think you’re drunk when actually you’re just doing you?
For me, yes. ADHD doesn’t necessarily mean that everyone will experience extreme emotions, but it’s been true for me.
Is it an ADHD move to set a kajillion alarms for something because you don’t want to be late again, and you still are? Is it an ADHD move to leave really early for an event and find you’re just on time? Is it an ADHD move to just throw in a load of laundry and clean the floor and put away the shoes and whatever else as you’re walking out the door? Is it an ADHD move to have to go back into the house for multiple forgotten items many times?
It definitely could be. Time presents itself differently for me than it does for a lot of people. Time management has usually been wait, wait, wait, ok NOW DO ALL THE THINGS!
Is it an ADHD move to miss a lot of social cues? Relationships are harder for people with ADHD. Is it an ADHD move to be able to listen or work better while you distract yourself with something else?
Is it an ADHD move for your train of thought to more closely resemble an Asian overpass?
I know I have ADHD. This is my life. This is how I operate. Other people with ADHD might have different experiences or symptoms; this is how it is for me.
I hope you now understand a little more about what it’s like having ADHD.